I do have a blog but it isn’t here…
Wednesday, February 27th, 2008I never realize how much Friendster has change since I became a member.
Friendster is all about networking between friends. Then it started to change
and added blogs, reviews and now applications. Now it feels like a Facebook to
me, one I de-activated because it was boring.
Oh hi, I forgot to introduce myself.
Duncan is my name and I’m a Chinese Malaysian. Some of you know me for a very long time and some of you just know me recently. Here’s something I would like to share when it comes to blog – I do not blog. Seriously, I don’t blog about life in
the last 3 years. When blog exist, it was all about providing news to the world
in another perspective without editors. Who knew it became a personal internet
diary that some loggers can even become celebrities (namely Steven Lim, Jeff Oii,
Kenny Siam and a few others) after typing their daily lives on the internet and
share it to the world (1/3 of the world that is). Sharing your life to the
world was the one principle I refuse to do. My personal life, my own business.
But then, all that change 4 years ago when I met Suet; the one person that
change my life tremendously from a very passive guy to an active slightly
out-going person. And my parents hated that…
So because of that change, I used to have 3 blogs; the first one I can’t remember
where it was but I wrote it out of anger. The second was in Multiply, and I
only become active later after realizing I can do movie reviews there (which I
love) and started my own blog there. The 3rd would be also another I
can’t remember where it is and again, it was out of anger too. The reasons I
have Facebook because my friends invite me in. But after 4 years in
relationship with Suet ended, I register another blog site that suited me the
most of my very own personal thoughts inside… it’s a secret ;).
I de-activated Multiply and Facebook because I see no point in continuing from
there. But the real reason is my memories in Multiply is a lot harder to
swallow and I wanted to start something fresh and new. Facebook doesn’t appeal
much after much browsing (I still don’t get it why it’s so popular… but then it
is a matter of personal taste). So with both accounts de-activated and started
my *secret* blog, it was a new beginning for me since late last year. Suet
found out about it after my de-activation and continues to read my updates in
my *secret* blog. So I gave up and don’t see a point of me de-activate my blog.
No point running away as well. What she did to me was a good thing that I accept
it and it is a fact that I change for the better, but what her indecisive
decision on our relationship when a “3rd party” gets involve
seriously make me realize there’s more to this than just love. It was also my
final call for even consider a relationship. “Trust” is very hard to gain these
days, and the truth is it is harder to “trust” someone now after knowing that
anything is possible that can happen to you. I still remember saying to her she
will be my last and if things didn’t work out, I will not commit myself in any
relationship. She said the same thing too during when we were together. Truly
now she is the last for me but not true for her since she found someone who can
give her more than I could (took me a while to realize what it was until when found
out, it gives me more reason not to commit or even go dating with anyone).
That’s life. The funny thing is, she still wants to know what I have been up to when I don’t want to know. Every once in a while, she will email me about what I have
been doing lately. I reply in the first few emails at first but gave up because
I find myself not changing at all and be depress about the whole thing just
doesn’t make sense. I yearn to move on… and I miss out all the wonderful things in life that I wanted to do since young. Now, I believe I can do it, one small
step at a time. My first would be learning a new language and I just started
learning Hanguk (Korean). My next would be… well, that would be in my *secret* blog. No, I am not telling because now I’m getting to my point what will I blog
in friendster.
This blog will just be my radical opinions, poems (I wrote a few in Multiply and
it’s all gone now, I still do have my backup written poems), small little
things to talk about I would to dip myself for trouble and anything else come
into mine. My personal blog life will not be here. I am sorry as it is hard to
trust someone these days to just let someone into my life easily. It takes… a
little knowing and understanding. So I hope you respect my decision on this.
Well, this is my first introduction for Friendster blog. Hope you enjoy reading this one and the next one soon. I take my leave and hope you have a good day ahead.
